there is always an uncle nob head

so this christmas has been yet  another ground hog year except i have had the worst colds and was so poorly the day before thank goodness that was all cleared up for seeing the grandparents.
 I had to then see my Uncle along with the cousins on boxing day and yet again whilst downing another red wine he dictates the roles of how he wants the best for his daughter and son but oh no he gets so pissed his son has to stop him arghh. So there we go another christmas with the uncle nob head it has got me thinking about my new year resolution to take everything as it comes and to not, take what people say too seriously. As before i finished work i was getting far too upset over everything this year i must be more CONFIDENT.

a new year a new start

i was just thinking about 2011 and all i could think about was three things one finishing a degree, two working away and three gaining a job. I am hoping 2012 will be just as good as that i have applied again for the PGCE and i am hoping to hear back sometime in January and i really cant wait for graduation also i have been looking yet again for a new job and i am hoping to work abroad again.

the best is to ignore

i was sit having a coffee with my dad when a girl keep on looking over to stare at me , my dad said maybe shes on drugs i had to get out of her way some people have no morals

sometimes you have to take a step back before you can make a huge leap forward

just a random statement that i thought off at the top of my head when i was asked to do some babysiting, at first i thought thats nice of them, then i thought no thanks i was a babysiter when i was doing my Alevels at sixteen.

a break cant come fast enough and fingers crossed

So  working at the day nursery closer to home  with the preschoolers is getting much  better, as  this week  i have decided to raise my voice a bit more and i have had some hugs which i love, its another week till my holiday but i really cant wait and i need the break as it will  take my mind of missing my mates  and the uni fun hehe . which hopefully i can get back to next April or September as i have just  applied for the PGCE So another 30 pounds to spend

the hardest part

i am really enjoying this new job but even though im loving the work with the children i still want to go and get on the PGCE its so hard to say goodbye from a university lifestyle and move on to living with the rents.

a scorcher of a week

wow this has been one beautiful week just as ive finished in Derby everything has been so nice they finally told me yesterday  i can start on Monday at quarter past 8. I am really looking forward to having proper full time hours to spend my money on obtaining a new car and saving the holiday i cant wait to start i just want to celebrate:D

eveything changes

wow my mate is pregnant and my cousin is engaged

when your smiling the whole world smiles with you

well what a start to the morning i went into the office to ask the director if it was possible about having the time off in December he basically turned around and said to me that i should not be thinking about that far ahead as i am not up to standards, if they fire me before three months i wil seriously think of going for an unfair dismissal but thankfully my day got better as i got home to find a voice mail on mobile saying can you please phone kirby Nursery. I have been offered a full time job as a nursery nurse with pre school closer to home and with better hours and pay so i will definately be able to hand my notice in to the nursery in Derby with a smile on my face and leave the past behind. i dont really mind what happens at the nusery now i cant wait to start with the pre school children at Kirby.

the warmth of a new coat

so not long ago on a shopping trip in Nottingham   i spent out on a brand new coat i haven't been able to wear it yet and now i have it feel so warm and cosy in the air of the cool wind. It has been crazy these past few days with the end of a hurricaine i hope my cousin now is able to fly off to New York soon which should of happened  over a week ago.
Also with the crazy wind the children were running around in it and i just feel like im not keeping up to standards and everything i does  goes wrong to my touch thank goodness the job offer closer to home was able to give me a second interview.  on Tuesday afternoon, i rushed straight back from Derby doing some rediculous speed in the car which will not be attempted again even though the fourty minutes journey seems to be longer every time i travel. I was cheerful to see the children there were more involved and inclined to take part in all activities where as back in Derby the one word i keep hearing all the time that i would officially love to ban is the word No it should be turned around to ok maybe later..  i am finding keeping a positive reinforcement on everything is very difficult when they are just not listening is it me!!
Anyway im really looking forward to hearing back and hopefully getting a chance to work closer to home one day untill then i am going to enjoy sitting in my car with my new warm coat:P

friends are the best :)

well after finishing a long week at work i headed off for the bank holiday weekend  up north, i was allowed to stay with Dan and his family his dad wasn't very accomodating though but i had a great time especially as i was able to head to Liverpool i will definately head up here again someday. Also Dave allowed me to stop the bank holiday  nigh at  his house  and i had an amazing time meeting some old and new faces hopefully the work situation will get better as at the moment its again not good but there ya go PGCE in the future fingerscrossed, but i do have the best friends x

moving out and moving on

today it was a day of farewell to the brookside flat i have had an amazing two years there and will never forget, this week has gone by so fast and i have had a great week the staff at work are lovely and i have some great hours again next i will give it a month to see i think a job at home will be for the best!
i just cant get enough of thissong

the best things in life are free

ive just come back from a little trip to see my dads old holiday spot as a child at Anderby creek and even know it was freezing cold weather there was still holiday makers on the beach making the most of it all ! the best things in life are free if u have those people there to make it fun there was an amazing tribute act and some funny moments. I start work this Tuesday and so glad to begin on the steps of my future career:)

oh there is a lord

went for a job today as a nursery nurse thought about the fact that i needed to start somewhere they made me stay there all morning whilst i got to work with all the staff and found it to be a breathe of fresh air not only were the staff really inviting but they were saying how you  can move up the career ladder in the job, i am therefore hoping to stay there untill i get a job back in Leicester or maybe will be working abroad again  i have also had a quick glance at flats and some of them are not too bad im still thinking maybe this would be a  better investment than commuting depending on job.

living in a bubble

But unfortunately the degree had come to an end the three years of new friendships and my incredible love of independence was lost to the hope that one day I would return but with taking a dip into the PGCE at Manchester Metropolitan University I knew that I had failed at this task my goal was plummeted back down to the ground all because of my unworthy 2,2 I believed that the only thing good from this now was the hard search for a job as perhaps a nursery nurse to build me way back up. If only a light could eventually shine down and bring some sort of hope not even a single interview for a teacher assistant job has come my way, I have an interview on Friday morning for a nursery my first interview for a job since coming back from Turkey, the job in Turkey only lasted five weeks and even know it gave me so much independence and was exciting to officially work abroad, I now feel sad to lose some sort of a job, I have worked there for six years but even know they are a shit company to work for I will miss the benefits of the lovely Hilton Hotel and i feel i currently living in a bubble with no where to go no goal to achieve

its not what you know its who you know

ok so i havent blogged in a very long time this is mainly due to my three weeks of being back from Turkey and wondering why i didnt stay .. but as i pondered this i realised things may of been for the best just lately the temperatures for turkey have risen to 39 c so not the best but Kirsty ( head nanny)  has said she is starting to miss me out there so it does show i was kind of useful , I do wonder whether il be back working abroad again in the future.
Its been a very interesting week even know i didnt get on the PGCE i was able to go for an interview and  get to crewe without crashing which nearly could of happened several times in Stoke me and roundabouts will never be the best of friends. I have some job opportunities lined up this week and i believe that if my future plans will become real i need to get the money together  and my mum has just told me about an amazing opportunity in the hospital bring on the pay and the hope of a gym membership:P

back to the grind

so i am back in sunny Leicester as enjoyable as it was to be there fo five weeks i will not miss the following things
a the annoying long stair case to get to work every day leaving no time to do anything in the breaks and b the disgusting crapeteria food that was offered each day but apart from that it was a great experience to say i officialy have worked abroad for five weeks in beautiful Turkey and would love to go back to the country again one day. As for now i have the wonderful dreaded search for ta jobs in the UK fingers crossed something comes my way or the chance to work again abroad somewhere new x

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lAhHNCfA7NI budda bar song

mini disco time

i am currently sat in agora listening to various international mini disco songs and my fave has to be the spanish ones this week has been very eventful and ive loved it starting with Saturday it was my first transfer day and i really was quite nervous but excited i felt very confident on the mic on the bus and was able to stand up but had to be proped up by Kirsty. Last night was my first night out in Bodrum and we all got very drunk i was dancing on the bar and drinking various free shots and it was great fun bring on more trips to Bodrum

turkey end of another week (week 2)

so another week has flown around yet again and i am finally adjusting to the style of work i have thoroughly enjoyed this week even more with the chance to work with the older age. I also had an afternoon off where i was able to go to the spa and have the chance to have  a turkish massage with a turkish man. He was so much better than the previous back massage i had encountered and worked wonders on my arm which has a lot of tension it wasn't that bad either at about 42 lira so 21 in the uk roughly.  So if i decide to stay longer i will definately have to choose to have a massage more often. As for work head office has emailed to ask whether i would stay till November i believe that id prefer to just September so we shall see what they say as id like work with a better pay as i believe it can be fun here but long hours.

day off and transfer day

Today was an amazing day off from how busy it has been i am sure sometimes they are doing things they would never be able to get away with in England like two staff to twenty children at night time. On the positive though we had some great tips from some parents which was able to pay off my expenses card. I will make sure that this is paid off at the end of each week because one of the girls who thankfully went home today ended up paying a fortune of 400 turkish lira I  would be so poor.
Today has been really good i have been on a catamaran which tipped over and watching Sam waterboarding he tried to go for a jump and hurt his cheast. i can't wait for my next day off where i will be a lot more chilled and will be able to sunbathe some more. I have also booked for a back massage as we are able to get discount there.
Stupidly i have decided that on my night off i will be doing some babysiting one of the rich parents said money is no object so hopefully a good tip tonight to spend on some good quality food.

Turkey Sea Garden day 2

so i have finally settled in to living away living with Heidi head of water front and Kirsty we are all pretty close the guys in the office are very sound and don't mind anyone coming into their offfice. The work in Turkey is very full on but the nights off definately make up for it and for some reason i can manage to pull off work half 8 till 9 so some very long hours and thankfully there is a good lunch break. Unfortunately i don't seem to be able to afford drinks onsight as i still don't have a card that all the drinks have to go on which at the moment is ace as i haven't had to pay for anything and when we went to sort out the residency VISA in Bodrum today i had lunch and drinks paid for:P hhehe
Bodrum centre is so culturally ace and the people are all very traditionel with the guys in the street singing and pulling you into their shops. The turkish men are a very strange bunch one of the guys that work in the area has a  habit of just staring. I have been told that wednesday i will be learning the watersports so very much looking forward to that.

London calling

 I had a fab time in London yesterday, before collecting the Visa we stopped off at Westminster and it was amazing to see the amount of patriotic joy there was many flags lined up also there was so many crazy people camping what freaks !
finally we ended up at the Embassy where we were greated by the most arrogant of woman, who told me it was not possible to get the visa and passport back till next Saturday which means i will be flying Monday when i really need to be out on Saturday :( she had the nerve to speak over the mic as though i was death stupid embassy lady. For lunch we stopped off at Pizza express and yet again there was another rude person i just think you have to be slightly arrogant to live in London. Sara once told me that everyone who passed the street cleaners in the morning ignored them but she was sweet to talk to him and he appreciated this. I therefore could not live in a big city such as London

onwards to the turkish embassy

off to London tommorrow to battle the crowds to receive my turkish VISA at the momement with the company it is all pretty vague not only did they bodge up going to get the VISA first time but they want me to get hold of my old CRB checks when they have one its like they are saying there CRB is invalid. On a plus side ive managed to get in contact with four people of whom work on watersports, one of which is German and ive been having a lovely conversation in German and she will be back in July for her birthday so looking forward to visiting lots of new people and starting work out there. i think i will definately miss uni and all the people but making new friends will be great

let the sunshine

With the sun outside i am beginning to feel very spiritual and i  am so looking forward to feeling the heat for six months abroad. Even though it is a very long time away from home i am very excited as it will be a new adventure. Oates 2011 the experience will better you!

I spent a few hours today sitting outside and find that i am also able to reflect on past experiences of revising for the GCSE and AS levels.

step by step

whilst on the wii dance i thought how much i should keep the fitness up so i will definately be going swimming again sometime soon and hoping to be back at dance on Monday, was so unlucky to not be able to go this week as i didn't learn the jaz steps.Also whilst drinking lastnight i was remembering some good songs from back in the day and how spooky this was.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W8JLqsbK5V0

one word shattered

i can honestly say that was an incredibly eventful weekend and i am so glad i had the chance to go back because i saw Dublin in a better light from the leprauchan museum, prison and bars the people who went really made it  lets just say extremly interesting:heheP
birthday tomorrow i totally feel it should be next week now as so much has happened this weekend

blondie one way or another

I was listening to some Blondie songs last night and was thinking what a legend music is not the same

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mULAf_7LmeI

living on a prayer

whilst listening to Glee ( which by the way i am not a fan of but the singing is amazing ) and listenining to the amazing man in the flat next door. Has had me thinking that the only slogan you only get out of life what you put into it is very true
 pure concentration today has proved i can do this. Also forget valentines day consumerism, there are lots more important things to think of, what about the unconditional love of friends and family ( ok thats very soppy i know).

do what you want like nobodys watching

a lecturer once said what ever you do maybe insignificant to all but will definatley make a difference to at leastr a few. After the week i have had that quote seems very understandable whatever happens you can not sit on the fence so something has to be said.
Also placement went well i distributed my questionnaires  out and i  feel that once these are handed out work will suddenly progress, As for a social life i have learn't that it wont be needed for quite sometime and that the less you do go out the more fun it becomes
have a great weekend xxx

tonights gonna be a shit shit night

ok everytime i hear that song it worries me like the old bad day song, i am feeling rather annoyed alcohol can turn those around you into someone different but eventually i saw the light and decided to go home.

night out is never the same

i went out last night to cheer up Gem but i feel absolutely awful not only did i come back early but i started to feel shit and i only drank one drink and felt as though i was going to be sick :s.  I hope that i will make it out maybe Wednesday night for Stephs birthday

no need to panic

What a great week finally after waiting almost a month grades were kindly given from my tutor Val Woods and she can reveal that i will be hopefully on track for a 2,2 and maybe with 75 credits remaining a 2,1 so the past few days have been spent focusing on the Independent study which will be scarily in for 22nd April so time to get down to some hard work. Also an amazing night out was had with Sammy Buxton:D who showed me a true mosh night where we both picked up and spun round good times:P loved it

so excited

Has been told i have been succesful for the job but will be a mystery as to where it will be

sometimes people are too cocky

Last night was the annual works party and the theme was masquerade my mask was a black and silver one costing a couple of pounds. some people on the other hand had decided that they would make a mask which looked rather tacky lol. Anyways we had an awards ceremony and for some reason people were shouting and missusing the occasion too get rather stupid. One particular lazy person found the need to try his hands at getting with every woman there 'what an idiot'. Apart from that the entertainment was great fun get rather pissed on free wine.
I also found a great article in nursery world which sums up my experiences of the three years of study ' in short you can learn a huge amount through talking to people and observing what they say and do' i have encountered lots of people i appreciate greatly.

primary school days

teaching today was amazing i feel  like i can eventually become a primary school teacher if i try with the PGCE the kids are adorable thorntons chocs:D

FA Cup

just watched the Leicester v Man City and oh my was that a great performance what with a new signing from LALALALA Bamba i can see us performing very well in the division but Man city away is just going to be scary.
So fingers crossed also i went for an interview in London on Friday to work in either Corsica, Sardina, Greece or Turkey i very hope that i get Corsica as it is a French speaking country. But i may not be so lucky as i may have blown the interview by one question on how would you cope with one of your members not pulling their weight i said well it depends on the circumstance and probably have to report them but i'm not sure if that was correct and don't want to get my hopes up

Dublin

five years ago i went with a college trip and i have been convinced to go again even though i am so broke i could cry

nice to be back for a while at least

went back to Derby for a couple of days before the dreaded interview and met up with Sammy and Alex:) Went to the Bless for a drink with Sammy and found that pub quizzes are definately not our strong point but very fun must go again. Back at the flat decided the sofa would be bigger to share but then as an idiot i got the smaller end so back pain but nice to be back:)

new year

after worrying about pay and work new resolution is to take each day as it comes and try not to worry too much